When the Leader is a Women.

What would you feel when a women be as your leader?

Feel awkward? Uncomfortable?

Women usually want to be perfect. Either in their life and want to be a successful person.

But sometimes, when women are our leader in one organization, they tend to do it over the limit. They want the entire job done perfectly. They want the entire job done by them. Sometimes, they don’t want to listen to others.

Community members. What are community members?

What are the purposes of community members? Are they just being appointed just to sit and listen to the leader? Are they just elected just to say "yes" to the leader? I think this is what happening right now.

Leader?

Meeting?

Round table?

Commitment from the members?

Or only the leader exists in the organization?

The entire thing that happen in the organization, they decided it without any discussion with the community members.

After all, when comes to the mistakes that done by themselves, they tend to point somebody else's.

I think this is funny. Very FUNNY. Typical Malaysian. They think inside the box. Never think outside the box. For me, I want what am I trying to do am for the best. Not perfect and not just for fun.

I accept advice from the others.

But can the leader accept that too?

They might think that what they did, what they have come with and what have they think is always right.

They are good. Really good. But, aren't they giving their best in their work?

Conducting a meeting. Yes. They surely can. But what is actually meeting conducted too?

Listen to the leader speech? Listen and do what the leader asks?

For me this is totally wrong.

Why must this leader conduct a meeting instead giving the memos?

Huh! I'm sick with this.

They just do their work and decide it by their own. Suppose all the information is to be shared. Not until it's printed out then we realize the mistakes and the leader pull their face off!

Please. WE MUST LISTEN TO OTHER.

I don't want to take the consequences on what have you done today on the next day. I really don't want too.

Never mind. Just blame me. No need to thanks me. But, remember, one day you might think that I'm right. I'm doing this because of our own good. Not like the way you think. You want to make it easy but in wrong manners.

I don't want anything to happen. So, I ask somebody for her opinion. I don't want to make myself get into trouble. If you insist to do what you want, just state your name in it but not mine.

Remember. Think wisely. Ask for the advice for others.

Thanks. :)

KING.

Relationship? What can I say? It's like a ship on the sea. No matter how big, how powerful, how expensive and how exclusive the ship, it still can't bear the wave from the ocean. It still wobbles no matter how strong the ships are. If the ship takes a wrong direction, it might sink in the ocean like what we saw in one of the most successful movie, a romance genre movie, TITANIC.

"You jump, I jump".

"I'm the KING of the world."

Familiar with the dialog isn't? HEHE. That was two of the dialogs in the Titanic between Rose and Jack. :)

How romantic they were.

But, Jack had made a promise with Rose that he will not leave Rose alone and will forever stay with her. But all of that quotes are lies. Lies of love.

Everything that happens when we are in love is different. The entire thing that we do together is like the most unforgettable memories ever. :D

But, what does actually the meaning of love? The meaning of being in a relationship?

Is a relationship is only for romances and sweet thing. And until one time, we get into fighting and blame each other then just simply to break off the relationship that has been built for about a time.

Ego, hot tempered, selfish, stubborn, and jealousy is part of our characteristic. But, do we aware that, this behaviour sometimes can turn down our relationship.

We need understanding from each other. But because of the EGO and the hot tempered this entire thing were disappeared. Where is the happiness before? Where is the joy, the laugh and the jokes?

Because of ego, they blaming each other. Because of no compromise, we tend to get into argument.

What I need is just understanding. If the relationship is just like an order from one person and the couple just follows the rules and orders, what kind of relationship is this? Military training is it?

For me, it just simple. Come over and face to face. Sit and talk! No offence. There's no need to get into fight until we make ourselves suffered because of our own ego.

Throw away the ego and turn it to understanding. Start to learn and love our couple. Don't just say that "I LOVE YOU". It's common thing. Everybody can say it. Show your love to your love one.

PATIENT! Tolerant to each other. That is the most important thing.

Without this, we might get a problem, fighting with each other and have many misunderstanding.

This is just expression of my feelings. No offence.

To my sayang. If you read this, I just want to say, I hope you will understand me, and try to get along with my attitude. I LOVE YOU and never ever cross in my mind to hurt you even you dare to hurt me. No offence sayang.

p/s: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

Heart.

Your heart is yours and I have no right to make it mine unless you insist too.

I won't force you to be mine nor to love me. It's all in your hands and your right.
I know you mad at me. But, what can I say? I'm just an ordinary human. I make mistakes and so other people do.

But, for sure, I know what I should and shouldn't do.
I'm glad because I have you as my heart.
I'm glad because you were here to be with me.
I'm glad because you're willing to be with me.
I'm glad because you want to accept my love.

But, can you do me some favour?
Please don't get mad easily. Listen to my explanation and then you can judge me. I need your understanding.

But, I won't mad. I won't force you to love me. Because I have no right to do that. I'm nobody.
I'm ugly, I'm fat and I don't know how to fashion.
But one thing that I do know is, I LOVE YOU.

p/s: I won't force you sayang.

Kubah Ria

Kubah Ria. A place that I always visit before.
After many months has gone, today, I went back to that place to pampered myself there.

The water is very cold. Super cold. Many memories written there.
I still remember, the first time I went to Kubah Ria is when I was 15 years old. On the time, I went there with my friends. Many of us always like to being there, enjoyed ourselves and of course to release our tension after going through out week with books.

In 2008, one tragic thing had happen and I never went there for almost one year.

For the first time, I went back to Kubah Ria with Sharil after that tragedy happen. Oh, gosh, this place reminds me to many thing. This place reminds me to many old memories. But, like people said, let the bygones be bygones. :)

So, today, I had fun with Alberto, his friend and my brother pleasured ourself at one of the waterfall there. HEHE. BEST YO! :D

Well, biasalah Alberto, he's GEDIKS. HAHA.

We went back home around 5p.m.
Sent Alberto and his friend back to Poliku and I drove back to my house. Thanks for makes my day perfect. :)

Bye.

Fun Fair :D

I went to fun fair today with my friends and my love one. :D
I was a romantic moment i guess for me and my love. We did unexpected thing at the unexpected place. HAHAHA!

I feel that is the best moment for us and we enjoyed ourselves much. We laugh, we scream and we talk bad. Badly. HAHAHA! As usual, we look at others who played the "kapal berayun" *HAHA*.

Abigail says "Mati ka orang ya". She's point to the lady in that ship. HAHA! The lady screamed like a person that going to be dead. She add " mun ku dh mati sia kali". HAHA. Paloi.

We go and played with the spinning ship. Sorry if I name it wrongly. HEHE.
We had fun. Much fun.
Then, done with that, don'y know what game to played, we decided to go home. :)

*Luckily all the food that we ate at the KFC didn't throw out. HAHAHA!
Boleh gila ku. GILA KU klak.

No need to wait. Bye. :)

Old Friend.

Sunday. It has been a while for me and my old friend didn't meet each other. Today, me, Alberto and James gone for a walk together for some shopping. HAHA. Lama dah sik jumpa. Makin gedik la James. :))

We went to The Spring. Shopped for some new clothes. James also buy T-shirt for himself. Susah mok pilih baju! Eee~.

We went to the Padini Concept Store. HEHE. At last I find the T-shirt that I want. Yet, I forgot to withdraw my money, I just go and buy the t-shirt without thinking about the money. HAHA. Luckily my money were enough to paid all the bill. Yet, I borrowed some money from James. HAHA. Tapi dah bayar balik okay! Gedik la you nih! Even, I didn't use his money pun. :)

Then, we decided to go and watch movie at MBO. But unfortunately, they cancel off the plan. Cis!
Alberto mok pegi lunch. Ngek.

Talking about lunch, we go and have our lunch at SCR express. Don't have to wait. Makan jak. Express tek nak? :)

Finished with our meals, I sent James back to his house, and I went to UiTM to fetch Fizan and drove him to his brother house somewhere at Samariang.

Accompany Alberto to buy some groceries at CSP at Samariang. Nangis nya. Takut guard won't let him entered Poliku at that time. HAHAHA :)))

Lastly sent Alberto back to Poliku without any question form the security guard. All safe kan Alberto. :)

Went back to my house with Fizan. Goodnight. :)

Relationship.

Love. Its come and its go.

For me, dia datang lagi! HAHAHA! As I said before I have a crush on someone and on 6^th January 2011 we officially declared us as a couple. Not husband and wife yet. HAHA :D

Hopefully, this relationship can last for a long time.

She’s gorgeous, she’s hot and she’s totally into me that’s make me feel I’m the luckiest men on earth ever. Sweet isn’t? She’s sweet, kind and very generous. She’s is polite and very talkative person. J

You own my heart sayang. Muahh. <3

<3

Shopping for the girls.

Tired, exhausted, fatigue as well as joyful. HAHAH :D

Today, we had no class at all. Then we decided to go for shopping at the town. HAHA! Kereta ku penuh oi! There are 6 of us. :D

Many place we go and from that many, only one place we enjoy ourselves much. HAHAH. Crack!

Well, as you all know, when the girls buying their stuff of course they take a very long time to choose their stuff and that’s make me tired of waiting. J

But, the best part is, when the wanted to buy the bra’s for them. HAHA. I disturb them. Hahaha! This part memang I suka. HAHAHA!

Then, lastly, we go for dinner. Yalah makan yang paling besar untuk 6 of us. Too many food serve and we didn’t realize that we ordered so much of food. HAHA.

Nak? Ambik lah. haha!

Then, BALIK LA. No need to wait. Bye. J

Bulan

You were so bright even can be brighter than this.

I miss the moon so much. I miss the full moon. It’s so beautiful and I feel very peaceful when I look at the moon. Oh, full moon, I miss you so much. The day keep to rain day and night that makes you can't appear to make the night become beautiful and romantic. Moon!

Crush. :D

Ermm, how I’m going to start. Okay. Let’s start like this. HEHE. :D

Love? What is real about love? And what is so special about love? For certain people they might say that love is unspoken and unable to describe love, how it taste and how it feel.

And for me, whether I like it or not, I have to admit that love bring happiness to all human being although sometimes it hurts so good. :D

I always bear this on my mind. The quotation that my mum always tells me when I still a kid. HEHE. She told me, “Bang, when we love someone, put their name in a circle instead of the heart, because heart can break but circle roll on forever.” I still remembered that quote until today as I always love my family, friends and all people around me. J

Believe it or not, it’s your right to believe it. :D

Well, how I’m going to tell you all. Hehe. Let’s go straight. HAHA! I think I have fall in love with someone. HEHE. Someone that closes to my heart always comes to my mind and I can’t stop thinking about that person. Hehe.

I just introduced that person as M.H. How we know each other? HAHA! Its start around 3 months back, when me and my friend go to M.H house at night and we pleased ourselves as a friends. After I broke up with my couple on November 2010, M.H is always there to accompany me when I feel so lonely. M.H is so kind, sweet and very talkative person.

Sifat M.H? M.H PORET! HAHA! That’s make me like M.H so much because M.H can be my reporter to certain news. HOT NEWS. HAHA!

I don’t know how I can crush on M.H. But it happens when M.H starts to take care about me and told me that M.H likes me because of my attitude. Hehe. :D

Today, M.H studies one university with me. HAHA! I can see M.H everyday mun camtok! Yeay! I can’t wait to meet M.H tomorrow at UiTM as well as my class will start tomorrow. :D

This is M.H first semester at UiTM and I’m wishing M.H good luck with the course that M.H currently studied at UiTM. :D May M.H obtain a good result for this first semester. J

See ya M.H :D

*I love you so much M.H :D

-Love. It's beautiful isn't. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR earthlings. :D Hope this year, 2011 brings a lot of happiness, joyful and prosperity to all of us. HEHE.

Today is 1^st JANUARY 2011. And the date sound very unique. 1111.

And that mean, my class will start in 2 days. Whoa! I’m not ready yet to go back to the campus. HAHA! Know why? Because I haven’t got prepared or even be prepared to for this coming semester. Well, I don’t how to tell you all. But, LAZY is my key point. HAHA!

2 months semester break was pretty awesome and fantastic. My activities? Here there are! Looking at my house wall and the wall looked at me back. HAHA! Sounds ridiculous isn’t? But, that is my routine for 2 months back. That’s all that I can do in my semester break.

Well, I have spent my time around 1 week, go for some activities. I flew to Kota Kinabalu with my cousin. Actually he got something to do at KK, he ask me to go along with him. Pucuk dicita ulam mendatang la! HAHA!

But, seriously, I’m bored when I was there. There’s nothing much that I can do. Just go to see the town, goes shopping and buy some souvenirs to bring back. Where can I go? HAHA! I’m alone plus in the big city that I’m not familiar with, I just can go around my hotel, goes shopping at One Borneo and other place that I can say I was pretty amazing. Pulau Borneo bah! Bule bahh kalo ko! HAHA :D

After a week there, apa lagi nak ditunggu? BALIK LA.

Then, continue with the same routine, looking to the wall. HAHA! HALI-HALI INI MAICAM SAIA BOLE JALI GILA OOO. HAHA!

Today, 1^st JANUARY 2011. I’m celebrating this new year with Alberto and Haffizan. We spent our time goes shopping at shopping complex as well as I’m buy my stationeries for my coming semester. Sharel pun join. But just for a while. Dalam pukul 9 nya balik. HAHA! Nya memang sik dapat nak tahan mata nya. HAHA!

Last place we go was McD!

Fireworks? Rain work adalah. HAHAA!

 -Ngegeh nak nya tok? HAHA! Bujat!

-sukanya bila dia ceria. HAHA :D

3^rd JANUARY 2011. New semester, new lecturers, new excitements, new difficulties, and new fresh comer. FRESHIES. HAHAA!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY. Enjoy every single time that you have until you don’t have that time anymore.

*Azam tahun baru – Financial Accounting is on my mind. I need a booster. GEREK KOT! HAHA! :D